For the past few months Mandy and I have both felt like we are in the middle of a chaotic fog. That life was spinning around us and we didn’t know which way to go on a couple of big life decisions. We felt like, as close as we tried to get to God, we still were having a hard time discerning his will.
The other times in our life that we have encountered this sort of “haze” the only option that has ever brought us clarity is to start seeking our the will of God in the “open doors” available to us. To seek out other possibilities whether it be a different home, another baby, or a new job/ministry. And as hard as it is to try and make a move like that while in a fog, God has always stepped up and made things clear; but only after we took the first step.
Well, now we are in the middle of a situation like this but the stakes are much higher. We have taken a step towards a door that is huge, and it has a lot of risk for us. It has to do with the possibility of becoming involved with a new ministry opportunity, but at a much different and much further place away from where we are now. And because our current church has just sold their property, and the place we live in with it, we have to be out of our current home by the middle of September. The good thing with the risky step we have taken, is that if things materialize we won’t have a home to sell or a contract to step out of in going there. The bad thing is that there was a very good place we could have gotten in our current area that we have let pass; because we are still pushing forward with the big door.
Risky and Dangerous!
The scripture that keeps coming to mind is “and let us not lean on our own understanding…” Sometimes stepping out towards the door God is pointing you to doesn’t seem to make any sense. And that is the case for us now. But whether or not things materialize, I would rather look for another home then always have doubt about what God wanted to do with my life and with our family.
Following in the steps of Jesus is not safe, it was never intended to be. Not that it isn’t hard, and depressing and frustrating at times. But that you have to believe in God’s favor for your life, you have to go towards the dreams and desires that he has placed your heart. You have to step out in faith and give it a shot, because you never know where God wants to use you, even if it doesn’t seem to make any sense at all.
